January 1st, 12:10 am, crackers, bike rides arupulatho gallilu ani sandadi ga unai, window nunchi chusthu enjoy chesthunanu, new year msgs tho phone full vibration, apudu ochindi call, chusthe vidya, “hello vidya”,ananu “nenu suicide attempt chesanu Siri, sleeping tablets vesukunanu, Naku bayam esthundi nanu kapadu plzz ani anindi ” okasari ga mind block aindi bike keys tesukoni “ nenu osthunanu nu line lone undu ,natho matladuthune undu vidya nu bayapadaku nenu osthunanu” ani call hold lo peti ambulance ki call chesanu, “hello vidya door open cheyi vidya,vidya!! vidya!! Ani ananu, sanaga vinipisthundi thana voice, ma inti nunchi thanu unde place 2 km, velli chusthe kinda padi undi vidya apude ochindi ambulance fast ga ekinchi hospital ki tesukellam , I.C.U ki tesukellaru, oka 2 hrs taruvata doctor ochi she is fine, rest kavali and approach to a counselor ani anaru..!!
Vidya dhi Hyderabad vala ammama degara untundi vala parents abroad, career oriented ammai , thanu surya tho relation lo 2 years undi chala happy ga unaru, 5 months back thanu accident lo chanipoyadu, and aptinunchi thana career mida ekuva focus cheyaledu, thana goals ani fail ayayi ah baada nunchi baitiki ravadaniki chala try chesindi , friends andaram help chesamu counselor degaraki veldam ani anamu, “ ledu Naku baada matram undi im not mentally unstable anindi” sare ani friends andaram dhairyam chepamu memu unantha sepu bagundi 1 month nunchi happy ga kuda kanipinchindi emaindo emo sudden ga ila, discharge chesi intiki pampinchaka velli chusanu edusthu anindi “ sorry siri na valla kaledu , anduke attempt chesanu.
kani naku bayam vesindi” anduke call chesanu ani anadi, nenu gatiga hug chesukoni “nuvu ipudu ikada unav that’s enough, you are alive Naku inka em odu ani pada walk ki veldam ananu “vaddu nenu suicide attempt chesanu, nanu andaru vintha ga chustharu nenu ranu anindi” thana cheyi patukoni ninu evaru em anaru, chudam evaru em antaru ani baitiki teeskuni velanu. that was a long walk, she felt better… Every year worldwide analysis, 800,000 lakhs people commit suicide, 34% average are from age group 15- 35, approaching a counsellor is never for mentally disturbed people , a counselling is for normal people who have problems dealing with everyday life, approaching a counsellor is not wrong, mana society adedo pedda neram annatu chustaru, inka piccholu ani muddra kuda vesestaru, whatever might be the situation how big or small, wrong or right it might be, counsellor, psychologists, psychiatrists are never judgemental those are the finite and most important ethics followed. Counselling is for mentally disabled people is a myth, break the myth.
Aroje vidya opukoni unte ikadaka rakapoyedhi emo anipinchindi, kani andaru adrustavanthulu undaru vidya laga last min lo bathakadaniki so say “no” to suicide. Vidya call last lo chepina matalu, “na parents, Naku gurthocharu Siri Naku bayam esindi nenu lekunda valu undaleru, I have to be with them anindi”. A “U” turn my friend took, that changed nearly her life and 10 peoples life around her!! every one should understand this suicide cheskune vaalu pirikolu kaaru, ala ani mee adadidam aina salhalu toh torture cheyakandi veelu aithe vala badha ni opika ga panchukondi, the more you spend time and talk to them, faster they come out of it. veedu evadu ra advicelu istunadu anukokandi , experience anedi anubhavistene kaadu chuttu unna janalu ni chuste kuda vachuddi, oka close friend no leda, blood relative no pogotkunte tattukoleru. a badha chala bhaiyankaram ga untundi.But in the end, one needs more courage to live than to kill himself. take care.